Tuesday, December 18, 2012

A broken heart and scrambled mind.

I just thought I was going to do so well at getting started.  I had my first blog almost ready and then Friday the 14th struck.  My heart has been broken as with so many of you.  I have struggled with my feelings on the events in Newtown, CT.  I cannot even begin to imagine what these parents and children are going through.  I sat at work and cried.  I wanted to get on the first plane to Charleston to see my granddaughter and hold her close.  I wanted to fly to CT and reach out loving arms to those in so much pain. 

What has happened to us as?  Where are our morals?  Where is our compassion?  Our nation and our world has become more and more violent.  We want what we want and make all sorts of excuses for our actions.  We are quick to place blame...violent videos, violent movies, violent television. We are numb to the pain that goes on every day in our country.  Child abuse, spouse abuse, it goes on and on. It takes the murder of over 20 innocent children to make us grieve as a nation.  And in the midst of this the battle for gun control rages.

Trace it back folks.  You start by taking God out of school.  Little by little we have chipped away and forgotten Christian belifs and values.  We are now reaping what we have sown. 


Tonight, as my candle burns in honor of these who lost their lives Friday I pray for comfort and peace for their families. God bless them all and hold them tight. I also pray for our country that we may wake up and start to change what is wrong and work for what is right.

Wow, My First Blog!

This is my first attempt at creating a blog.  Old dog learning new tricks I guess. So please stick with me as I try to create a blog worthy of reading.

Here goes..

What finally made me seriously think about sharing my thoughts in a blog was the death of a young girl today.  Bekah Merrit, 14 earned her wings today after a short but fierce battle with ovarian
cancer. At 2:12am, on 12-12-12, Bekah earned her wings. There is something so inherently wrong with this.
          14!, OVARIAN CANCER? REALLY????? Yep.  A life cut short.  I HATE Cancer.

Now you know what lit the match to fire me up to start writing.

I had played with the idea of starting a blog a few years ago.  I noticed that a lot of my friends and family were creating blogs and thought it would be a great way to see if there were others out there who shared my feelings or thoughts. Well, life seemed pretty uninteresting and not worthy of reading about.  Funny how things can change in a few short moments of time.

August 8, 2006:  I was diagnosed with Stage 3A Non Small Cell Lung Cancer (NSCLC). Yep, I knew I was going to die.  Regrets? Yes. Tears? Yes. Fight?  HELL YES!  From the lips of the girl who swore if she ever got cancer she would never have chemo, were the words "when can I start chemo".

Obviously, I did not die (someday, but not yet).  I learned many things through that part of my journey through life. That is what I want to share with whoever chooses to read my blogs.

On my first oncologist office for Victory in the Valley, a cancer support organization in Wichita, KS victoryinthevalley.org.  I had heard about this group being formed many years ago when I attended church (more on that later) so I really felt the need to check this out.  While sitting in there crying my eyes out I felt the compassion and love that this group has for cancer patients.  I received a tour of Victory House, a new patient bag and enough strength to begin my "journey through cancer".

Now you have the begining of the story. I hope to bring you through it with a new outlook on your life or at the least an appreciation for those struggling with their own cancer battle.